chocolatechatta

Sorry about the dramatic entries. As some of you may have noticed I'm very moody. One minute I'm chipper and jolly and the next I'm angsty and bitchy. I stress easily.

Alas. I feel the urge to listen to music and watch movies. That sounds silly, like "Golly Charlotte, everyone feels that urge at times!" But not me. A lot of the time I feel no urges. But today I just want to do so many things but I don't have time to do them D= And when I do get time I probably won't have this urge anymore.

Damn homework over the winter break -_- I am sorely disappointed to say that our midterms are AFTER winter break. Meaning I should be studying for them, along with my physics homework and English project.

Oh, I got my hair cut yesterday! I forgot to mention it. It's kinda short, but I like to make it flippy and it's totally rad. Kudos to my biffle Victoria =)

So I had all these ideas for an entry about an hour ago. And now they all just. Died.

I joined a community, fandom_addme and I feel like I lost myself in it all. I got all swept up in the anime and manga that I just forgot to be myself. I'm not obsessed with Japan, I don't like Pocky, I haven't seen much of Death Note. I just saw all these other fandoms of anime and manga and the first thing I thought of when I went to make my list was anime/manga.

I feel like I'm going to fail some Japanese pop culture test or something.

To everyone that added me, I'm not obsessed with Death Note. I'm not obsessed with Avatar. I'm not obsessed with anything. I almost feel guilty for even posting in that community. Because I don't fangirl over anything. I should post in a "we-don't-have-anything-interesting-in-our-lives" community.

I kind of wish I had something to be obsessed with. I feel like my life is so dull.

Though who knows. Maybe in an hour I'll be totally crazy over something. I get like that.

I'm too hungry to think right now. MORE CHOCOLATE.

I can't stop eating chocolate. It's just. Like. HEY I NEED BREAKFAST. Hey, there's some chocolate. You know? It's like we're two wandering souls. Soul mates. Wandering. Waiting to mate.

So I've realized I like to pamper myself. I like taking really long showers and really long baths. With really nice shampoos and conditioners and soaps and body washes. That smell really good. I need to make a trip down to Bath & Body Works pronto.

I've also realized that when I read a book, I start thinking like the character. When I watch a show, I start thinking like the character. Maybe if I stop doing anything to entertain myself I'll find out who I really am.

OH WELL.

Off to eat more chocolate.

It says I haven't made an entry yet but I know damn well that I've made an entry.

What do you want to know? My autobiography could fill up a library or be written on a post it note. It's just the way you interpret my life.

What did I do today? I lounged around my house and watched youtube videos. Today was a day to rest. A day to rest from all the resting I've been doing. I've been resting too much. I ate too much chocolate. Stacy would be proud.

I feel like I should be in a movie. Just so that some snazzy director would make my life into something interesting. Add special effects and a wicked soundtrack. And throw in a cute boy that the plain yet beautiful protagonist (meaning me) always gets in the end.

I feel like ranting about something, but I don't know what to rant about.
I feel like typing up a storm but the beasts of writing are kept at bay.
I feel like annoying the shit out of someone but I am all alone.

I've gotta loosen up and then these entries won't be so cryptic.

Screw this. I wanted my username to be chocolatechatter but it wouldn't fit.

I think I'm going to cry.